That was just one afternoon when I come to an internet chat room. Surely, I was not looking for a boyfriend, more so a cyber boyfriend. I remember, It was February 13th. I had been quite a frequent user to this particular chatting site for quite long time but also I was kinda getting quite bored of it. There had been days where I even kept on chatting without any sense!! but one fine day one guy comes to me for a private chat, he adds me up on his friends list. He was then staying at Madras(presently Chennai) and I stayed at Kolkata. He seemed to me very nice, very different,and I felt that I haven’t come across a guy as cool as him and caring...it was like whenever he wanted to say something to me, like he always began with “can I tell u this? can I ask u? plz don’t get me wrong ok.”
We gradually became friends, great friends... To tell the truth, I never had a close male friend as him then in my life. I strangely developed an urge to be his only close friend,I started sharing even the simplest of happenings of my life with him..Infact, he unknowingly started living in my thoughts,in my dreams,,in my LIFE .... and I called him my ‘cuddly pillow’ because I wanted like hugging him and kissing his cheeks as if he’s my baby.
We got to know each other more as days passed by. We found out that we had something in common….uhmm…ok, we were both like kids =) playing around. Our chats were always funny...he always won when it came to making me laugh...whenever I got upset it was Him I always ended up being silly and giggling away...
It was that one night that after 5 long hours of chat I got to know that the unknown person whom "may be" I started falling in love with is coming to meet me the very next day!! My heart pondered...it stopped for a second.. the only thought that ran in my mind that very moment was "what if He dislikes me? What if he finds me funny? What if I get nervous and act stupid?" ...when suddenly a ping distracted my thoughts..and with all confidence I sounded very excited! Noh, actually Super excited.....
He got a picture of me, an old pic where I was just 14. I told him I did not look like that anymore.He sent his picture too, I was expecting to see a young-bunny-like-dude as that was how he acted. To my surprise he turned out to be extremely Charming, with a heart-shaped face, lovely eyes, everything was so not to what I had pictured him in my mind...
We met, and as days by we as was evident fell in love..I turned out be his only girl in life and vice versa!things were just perfect when we realized that He is destined to marry a girl whom his Mom wants him to marry. But, This time we cried... especially when we realized we could not make it. This was so frustrating, because we wanted to marry each other, we wanted each other so badly. We were so in love that were blinded. The reality shattered me into pieces..pieces that could never be joined... I was broken....
He had made a promise to me before leaving, that he would visit me here before he gets married...but I disagreed
for he will only be killing me by being in front of me when he is not free anymore..
and that was the last time probably I saw him ..I had tears in my eyes,will all HOPE that he would turn back for once, hold me in his arms forever and would never leave me ..but that did not happen...I wanted to stop him,but it was too late... he was gone... gone forever..
Today..
Still someone remembers, someone cares, his name is still whispered in someone's prayers...
May be near or far from view..
But someone till date badly misses you......
